Lately
I've been thinking about prayer—about
the weird ideas we Churchians have developed about prayer, and about
how they fit (or not) with our claim to trust God. I mean, we trust
God, right? We know (stop me when I'm wrong) that he is
all-powerful, all-knowing, loving, good, and basically smarter than
we are. Right? He has a plan, and a place for each of us in that
plan. And I have to assume that his plan is bigger and better than
anything I could come up with1.
Anyone disagree yet?
So...why
do we give him instructions?
We
claim to trust God completely, and yet we feel a need to instruct
him. To tell him how and when to meet our needs and wants. If you
have any Churchians as Facebook friends, you see it all the time: "I
had an interview today—pray that I get the job!" "Please
pray that my cousin doesn't get deployed to Afghanistan".
"Going to look at a new car—pray that we get it!" Hmmm.
Well, what if that job isn't the place where God wants you? Do you
still want me to ask him to put you there? What if God's plan for
the world depends on your cousin being in Afghanistan? Is it OK if I
ask for God's will to be done, or would you really rather have me ask
him to do your
will?
Doesn't
make sense, does it?
Right
now, I have a situation in my own life2.
There's this thing that I really want. From where I'm sitting, it
looks like a thing that would be great for me and my family in
several different ways. It totally seems to fit with God's plan (his
plan as understood and interpreted by me, that is). It's a
no-brainer: this is obviously a good thing and must
be God's will for me. So. What do I do? Ask all my friends to pray
that this thing happens like I want it to?
Beg
God endlessly myself? "Please God please God please God make
this good thing happen"? In my past life as a Churchian, that's
exactly what I would have done.
But...
Do
I trust God, or not? Do I believe that he has a plan, and a place
for me in that plan? Well, yes. I do. If this super great thing is
actually a super great part of his super great plan, do I need to
tell him to make it happen? Kind of ridiculous, isn't it? Me giving
God instructions, like maybe he forgot what he was supposed to do
next?
So
then, what? Don't pray?
As
a recovering Churchian, I'm tempted to fall back to my default
setting of praying for my will instead of God's. But here's how I've
been reminding myself to pray, about my current situation as well as
other things that I want/need/worry about: "God, thank you that
your plan is better than my plan. I give this situation to you.
Please carry out your plan, and please make my will match up with
yours."
Amen
- His plan is better than mine. That doesn't always mean that I'll like it better, especially in the short term.
- Nothing big, bad, or scary, I promise.